My health is bad and I get it.  I haven’t taken care of myself over the last 8 years of caregiver.  The Before I look good and the After I look horrendous.  The season has been unbelievable difficult with extenuating circumstances beyond just caregiving.

But then I got a UTI this week.  Hitting “the age.”  I felt so awful and antibiotics weren’t helping.  Was in bed for a week and then that led to dehydration.  Went in for an antibiotic change and they ended up putting me in the hospital as my blood was so acidic.

I just want to feel well.  I want to have energy.  I want to be normal.   I sometimes wonder if I’ll ever be normal.

I needed someone to take care of me and my health problems and in that moment, I have had to deal with the explosion of LBD and be the caregiver.   It’s not a complaint, just a reality.

O Lord Jesus, heal me please.