It’s hard to say.  When my mother passed away it meant an immediate move.  And that is a lot.  For now it’s been moving a lot and not sure where to settle.  Mainly because it’s something I could never think of as we never knew when she was going to go.

I almost feel more tired now than before.  I think it’s the years of caregiving have finally lifted and I’m able to just really feel the fatigue.

There are so many habits also to undo.  I still think often that I need to go check on her.

I miss her.

And yet part of me, if not most of me, does not feel like she is gone.  I wonder when that will hit.

In the meantime I’m a month and a half out and still working on details.  It honestly takes several months.  There’s a lot of paperwork and things to be done.  I am working on her stone but am waiting on some things.

It doesn’t seem like her passing was 6 weeks ago.  How can that be?

Life moves so rapidly.