Mom and I went to see the solar eclipse today.  Wow!  It was challenging as initially she didn't want to go.  Glad she did.  And so is she.  What a special event!  #memories #livingnotdying

Last year was so awful that it cannot even be described on a public post.  Too many people involved.  It was enough that mom was in full blown Lewy Body Dementia symptoms and she only slept an hour a night.  The other hours were all about her trying to escape the...

Today I hit the wall.  My exhaustion was prohibitive to almost living.  Oh dear Father in heaven, what can I do?  A different situation with mom doesn't guarantee change.  It doesn't guarantee my health will be in a place where I can meet the demands of life.  Only...

This weekend I went away for a weekend without mom which was the first time in several years.  I had hoped to get some rest as mom has been in a semi-stable enough state for me to leave her with her husband.  I'm not sure the weekend was restful as it really became...

As a child the affirmation of your parent meant something.  So did the words that wounded.  And you would think when you grew into adulthood that somehow it changes.  It doesn't.  Even when you're much older and so are your family members.  Their words and actions...

This vacation was as desperately needed as the one before, even if it was just a week.  It felt more like vacation and less like care giving, although there was a lot of that.  I'm better thankfully although not fully rested or ready to be back.  Honestly there are a...

Off we go again.  After about a week home I realized I still am not in a good place with fatigue and the stuff here.  I looked at our free hotel stays and see we have some more built up (Get Free Hotel Stays with the IHG Credit Card).  This time we're going straight. ...

I had hoped to write about our vacation experiences and such but alas, the life of a caregiver doesn't always translate into the emotional energy necessary to do all that one desires.  Soon after we got back though we went to a lantern festival.  Prior to our vacation...

For as many years as I can remember we've had one swallow nest that gets populated every single year.  It's been a point of discussion as to which descendant gets the right of claiming the nest.  But  for over 30 years there has been someone hatching eggs right in our...

Today mom wanted to work in the garden and I wanted nothing more than to practice the Sabbath rest.  I overdid it yesterday.  But she REALLY wanted to be in the garden.  So with heavy eyes I drug myself out and we planted.  After awhile I burst into tears and we...

Mom has been having a weird thing lately where from the shin up she has swelling, but not from the shin down.  So off today to the doctor.  The preliminary diagnosis?  Venous reflex.  Not sure what that is.  A new thing to learn. Next to the gym.  She was graduated to...

I've been scrambling a lot lately, trying to figure out internet business.  Any business that will earn an income so I can stay at home.  So far I've come up terribly empty.  But have enjoyed the vast amount of things I've learned. At the same time in my busy of...

Bad storms ripped through the other night.  It's a dreaded time.  How can you get mom to the basement when she is non weight bearing?  And then there's the issue of panic.  There's one emotion she can't handle and that's fear. Seeing the storm rolling in, we put her...

We were at the fitness center, parked in the lot and mom was sleeping. "Mom, you want to go to the next state over?" "Ok." Back to sleep she went.  And down the road I went. Several hours later we arrived and naturally mom needed to use the bathroom.  She really likes...

Today was not a stellar day in the thinking world.  I was mildly frustrated with some things and I was reminded of previous frustrating times.  Big no no.  If you let yourself go down the road of  recalling hardship you will lose your compassion and patience.  It...

Decline is acceptable for many people, but I choose not to accept it.  There is a stage, end stage, where it is understandable.  But not now.  Not when the body is working, it's just the brain isn't. This week we've been dealing with that unacceptable decline--more...