Month: December 2018

Praying for Simon

There was a point that Jesus could not even go on physically.  He had been beaten severely and was tasked with carrying his cross up a hill to his execution.  But he could not do it. So in his utter weakness a soldier found a random stranger in the crowd and ordered him to carry the cross for Jesus.  His name was Simon. There are times when we cannot do anything more physically.  Even Jesus had his limits. Praying for a...

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Lately I’ve been having weird symptoms in the back of my throat.  It feels like I have a golf ball back there.  No irritation.  No redness.  Just a lump.  I hear it’s called a “globus” and it’s a reaction to stress. In a few months we will be hitting our 5 year mark of pretty much 24/7 care.  In those years I’ve gained 60 pounds, I have deep black circles under my eyes and I don’t recognize myself anymore.  I’m sure others don’t either.  I look rough because it is my current physical state. Caregiver health is almost always compromised.  They say you should “take care of yourself,” “do things you enjoy,” etc…  When I hear those things I think that the people who say them must not be caregivers.  Or maybe they’re rich and can afford extra help or they have a strong family support system where multiple people are involved. But for caregivers you are not only trying to juggle the care of your loved one but trying to figure out how to stay afloat financially.  It would be wonderful to “do things for myself.”  But it’s not a reality for me right now.  Every moment I’m not with mom I’m trying to figure out how to make it financially. But at the end of the day I would do it all over again.  My mother is...

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The Sleepless Nights Return

It’s true.  I only write when things are difficult.  And it seems like difficult times are returning. For the last couple of years we went from the most difficult and wildest year in 2016 to moving to naturopathic medicine which put everything to a screeching halt. But it seems like things are returning.  The hardest is that she wakes up at night every 10-15 minutes scared and needing to change bedroom locations.  The lack of sleep can wear you down. Not sure what to do do about it. Prayers...

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